How do you start a blog and try to fill everyone in on your back story? How do I tell you everything that’s already happened that has gotten us to where we are today? I guess you just can’t, but let me do my best here. I’m going to introduce you guys to my world, my life, my reason for cooking, working, going to work every day and really my reason for making this blog: My kids.
Meet Annalise (7) and William (5). Really, I wish you could all meet them. They make me so proud, sometimes I cry about it. I had these guys when I was super young (19 and 20) with their dad, Will (my high school boyfriend, later husband), who I separated from when I was twenty three. It may sound a bit off color but I LOVE being a single mom. I LOVE IT. Their dad is a good dad and our relationship is strong, so as much as it may sound like an oxymoron, we are a role model, super happy, divorced family. I know, 2017 style healthy family y’all- Mind blown.
In this blog, I will talk about my kids. I will talk about what they’re doing, what they’re eating, what they’re into these days and I will, most likely, complain about their bad behavior and silly habits. When it comes to parenting I’m sarcastic, transparent, and hella laid back. I’m not one of those mom’s who fronts, lies, fake smiles and starts every online post with a crock of hot steamy bullshit. I’m real and my journey as a mom has been really real. I’m excited to share this with you guys.
So, let me tell you guys about my life! I’ll just start where I am today because my backstory will need to be spread over the next 65+ years I have left on this planet. It’s been a long ride to get to where I sit today, which, if you’re wondering is at my desk, two hours behind schedule. I’m one and a half hours late for yoga (aka I missed it) and fifteen minutes late to pickup a friend (Sorry Erin! Love you <3) but, that’s single mom life and as much as I hate always feeling short on everything, I love it too. In some strange way it feeds my soul.
This year has been my first year single since I was ummmm 7? I don’t know, 12? Who knows but I know it’s some unGodly young age that signifies that I am a total hopeless romantic that has a bad track record of never being single. This year has been different. I had one boyfriend post divorce (who we won’t even think about because if I had it my way he would be permanently erased from my mind) who really threw me off track for a while. This year I dedicated myself to being single and to take some time to get to know myself and that’s what I’ve been doing. It’s amazing how good it feels to have some selfish time. I’m so in love with myself right now and I hope that at some point I can take all this love and channel it into a loving passionate partner but for now I’m just going to keep it all here for me.
Lately, I’ve been spending the majority of my time with my neighbors who you will hear lots about here. I am surrounded by such an amazing community and I genuinely feel like I have the best friend group out of anyone I know. I really like things with wheels- cars, bikes, motorbikes, ATVs, scooters, skateboards, all of it and in the last year I’ve acquired a new adult scooter that is nothing shy of LIT and just sold my computer and bought my dream bike a month ago. I’ve also deeply fallen in love with houseplants and spend all my free time and money acquiring new plants and reading about them. My love for them is so big that I feel like I may need to put it somewhere at some point, like into a school or a group but lets be honest, I’ll have time for that when my kids are in college. I’ve been reading the same book (The Girl on The Train) for five months and I think I’m on page 22. I take baths a lot more than showers because it’s often my only relax time and I never brush my hair because I like it messy most.
Right now I’m happy and I’m happy on my own. I’m growing, I’m learning, I’m by no means where I hope to be in my “end goal” but honestly, how much would it suck to hit your end goal at 26? I’m exploring, I’m learning, I’m growing and I’m making it my journey to be honest, humble and to enter every day with an open mind and eager to not only be strong but to also be weak enough to feel pain, to make mistakes and to not know the answer to every question but rather to listen and to surround myself with people I respect and that I know I can and should listen to. My journey right now is truly that- a journey and every day I’m a little bit wiser, weirder and have a new friend to call my own. I’m excited to share this journey with you all.
Thinking Out Loud